Hello my DA Friends!
Im very happy, because I can finally tell you that I have bought a new camera!!!! Whoah! I waited for so long to get a new camera (I didnt have money ) but now the time has come and I collected enough money to buy a new camera
I bought an Olympus SP-820UZ for my upcoming birthday (oh well, and three purple agate candle holders )I love Olympus cameras, every camera I had was an Olympus - I dont know why, but it just fits me I wanted to buy a SP-620UZ type, just because of the pixels, but when I found out that there is a type that has a "miniature" filter that I always wanted to try and a 40x ZOOM!! (dear god!!! 40x zoom! YAY!!! - yes, I love to snoop from a distance ) I knew it - I want it So I was collecting money for months (I collected everything from 1 czech crown - 1CZK, thats about 0,05USD to bigger paper money). And now - yay, my new baby is home!!!!!! And the photos are perfect - I dont even need to correct the colour or shadows!! It takes the photo and it looks like in the reality!!!!!!
But... even when Im happy, because I have a new camera and I can finally take good macro photos (I was suffering, because the camera that I borrowed from my cousin didnt have a macro function), Im still a little bit sad - because of my best friends. Well... I dont know if I can still call them "my best friends" ...Haniska, Kate and Martin - I dont know why, but they do not talk to me. As I moved to another town I had more options to meet with my friends, because Kate is living here in this town, Haniska lives 2km from here and Martin has his girlfriend and she is living there and I like her so much, so I thought "Hey, we can see each other more!", but... I have a lot of work, but even when Im at work for 6 days in a week and Im working from 10-18 o´clock I have enough time to meet them. Kate visited me more than a year ago, she came for a card reading and I thought that we will see each other more, because here at my work we can sit and talk for hours. Well - nothing When I try to write her on facebook, she is not answering. I sent her a picture for her namesday with a wish, but she didnt even say "Thank you", so I dont know if I should try to write her again. I think she has a lot of new friends with similar hobbies, like anime and manga, so I think she is happy the way she is, so Im not angry. Martin... we did see each other for a few times, but when he visited us (me and my man) for last, he wanted us to buy something for him (because I know some people that do deal "something" that I dont like at all), that I wanted not to buy for him, never ever! and I think he is mad at me because of that. I never thought that a thing like this will put a barrier between him and me and I am very sad because of that We were friends for 15 years!!!! And Haniska... yes, she has a lot of work and I know that and we have seen each other for 2 times, but the last time I saw her was a long time ago and when I try to contact her, she is not answering. My mom came across her, when she wanted to visit me, and Haniska said she will write me and that she wants to see me, but... nothing happened. Im writing her time by time, but... nothing. But I believe that the friendship between me and Haniska is not dead - I still consider her as my best friend and somewhere inside of me I believe that we will se us soon But I dont know what happened - I have many enemies, especially one girl. I thought that she is a great friend of mine, but whe she tried to destroy my relationship with my man, when she lied to my mother and my man and when she told many lies about me and my man to nearly every one (even people from my family) in my hometown, where I lived happily for 21 years!, so we had to move away to have peace and not to be afraid of going out for a walk, I understood she is not a friend of mine. I think she makes many things out of spite. Many people came to my pagan store, ordered a lot of expensive things that I needed to buy and then they never came back to pay for them. I found out that she knows EVERY ONE of these people, so I think that everything was plotted against me. :turbostab: Im afraid that she told lies about me to Kate, Martin and Haniska, because she knows them very well. I dont know what to do Im increasingly sad. I have my man and my mother, but... sometimes I want to talk to a friend. Just sit and talk... Maybe I dont need people like that in my life, people that are not even able to say "Thank you", but I miss them all so much. If you are reading this - please, I want you all to know, you - Kate, Haniska and Martin - if I have done something that did hurt you, Im very very very sorry and I mean it serious. If Klara said something bad about me to you, please, tell me that. Im sure I can explain and clarify that. If not, if you believe her or if you have another reason for not to talk to me and you dont want to talk to me at all for the rest of my life, please, let me know and I will never bother you again. But please, tell me that - I just want to know whats the matter.
Back to better news - me and my man, we are together for 4 years! We celebrated our anniversary on 30.4. He is great, he cares about me, especially now, because Im sick again (I even needed to stop working for a week - it makes me crazy, because I love my work). I want to thank the Goddess for giving him to me. He is cleaning the house and yesterday he made a delicious pizza for me with everything I love - salami, ketchup, pepper, onion and a lot of cheese I love him so much
I started to do new jewellery, especially bracelets. I love doing bracelets from gem stones and now I started a collection - Pagan Sabats themed bracelets! Dont worry, I will upload a picture of them on DA as soon as possible!
Im started to collect herbs because I want my own herb collection, not just the ones I did buy. So I have now herbs everywhere At my home, at work... everywhere Herbs and working with herbs make me feel calm and happy
And my book - the one Im writing, Vampyra, seems to be done soon!!! I just need to write 3 or 4 things (well, yeah, they are longer, but... ) and it will be done!! I hope that I will have it done this year, so I can release it the next year
So... I think I should stop complaning about friends that do not talk to me and be happy for everything I have. My mom is with me at my work everyday and we have a lot of fun. I know one girl - its Monica, the girl you can see on my pictures from Beltane 2014. Shes only 11 years old, but it feels like if she is my little sister. I love her totally and we are doing many witchy things together I maybe met some new people, that want to stay in my life, two women, that I met by accident and they seem to be fine. Both of them are older than me, both of them have children, but they are nice and kind and we understand each other. One of them, Martina, has the same disease as me, the chronic fatigue syndrome, so we can talk about that for hours and we can exchange knowledges about that and some advices. The second of them, Sona, is a great women, that has a lot of things behind her, her life is not happy, but she is very strong. And finally, when Im with these two girls - I laugh when I talk with them. It feels great to have friends, but Im still afraid to trust someone. After all the things that the girl from my hometown did to me, my man and my family, after revealing a lot of things about people, who pretended to be my friends and after all we experienced together they stabbed my back... Im very afraid to trust someone, who is quite new in my life. But my man said that I should try that, that I should go with Martina and Sona out for a coffee or so. So I think I will try it. There is nothing that I could lose. Maybe just the fractions of my trust to other people...
So, my DA Friends, I want to say goodbye for now. Wait for a bunch of new photos from me, because now, as I have a new camera, I will take photo of everything